Update

I got a clean bill of health this morning. Woohoo! I have to go back in a few months for another follow-up but everything should be okay.

Anxiety

I'm off for a follow-up appointment. Just hope that it goes well.

Just some cute pet pictures.

I just thought that these were really cute and decided to share them with my part of the world.

It's amazing

I can read something and just have a huge smile on my face. In the past, I would have cared. Now I just think how right I am.

All I can do

is smirk and shake my head. Give me a break!

Writing Workshop

I just got home from attending a Gotham Writing Workshop at the Barnes and Noble in Lincoln Center. It as a free workshop on the Art of the Short Story. Before I even made it to the workshop, my creative writing juices were flowing. So I was able to jot down some brainstorm ideas on it before class started. I'm glad that I made a point to go to the workshop. Now if only I could afford to take real classes there.

A month

It's been about that long since I had my "last" conversation with Jeremy. During this past month I've done a lot of thinking about my past and my future. I know where I would like my future to go. I can only hope that Scott is thinking the same way and if so, doesn't take forever. Everyday, I'm learning that life is precious and that we could all go just like that. As for my past, I've felt like I was divorced pretty much when I found out that Jeremy lied and betrayed me. And, of course, I'm constantly reminded of it when Donna continues to read about my life. Do I wish things were different? Yes and no. Am I glad that I'm no longer with Jeremy? Yes, because then I wouldn't be with Scott and actually know what being in a healthy relationship means. No, because I do still care about him and always will despite what others would hope for. Do I wish him and Donna happiness? I could really care less what they do. I feel that they will never be 100% happy with each other. If they were, then Jeremy and I never would have gotten together and married. But what they do, is what they do. Do I hope to never see them on the street either by themselves or with each other? Yes. I don't need to feel that hurt again. If I did see them would I turn the other way? Absolutely not. Would I even acknowledge their presence? Would depend on how they reacted to me.
I really want to concentrate on my future, in particular my future with Scott. At times, I feel like we're not going anywhere. At other times, I feel like there will be something more down the road. We are definitely comfortable with each other. It's nice not having to fight everyday like Jeremy and I did. It's nice to have him come home and know that he's with me. Do I want to marry him? I would say yes if he asked me. And he is aware of that. What will the future bring? Something that definitely was not my past......happiness.

What's worse?

Bratty kids who are fighting or the parents who aren't taking care of their children?

Question

Do you really think that I'm that stupid that I don't know it's you?

Doing another online class

Going through Barnes and Noble University, I saw another class that caught my eye-Writing for Quick Cash. As for the regular viewers of my blog, you know that I'm trying to get my hand into the writing field. I have several reference books at home and I'm thinking about joining some free writing classes throughout the city just to get things started. So I ordered one of my books that I need for the class-already have the other one at home. So hopefully in a couple of weeks, I'll be enjoying another class.

Differences

What to do when things are different then they were. Is it just because things are status quo? Or are there thoughts going through minds that haven't been brought up? When things are different it causes others to wonder. What have I done differently? What can I do to bring it back? Is it just a matter of being comfortable? What's to be done when pasts are brought up? Especially when you understand a little bit of the depths of the past? Mixed emotions enter one's head and it's hard to get rid of them.

Thought

Disgustingly fat

Weekend

I have a very busy weekend ahead of me. And the only thing I'm not looking forward to is dealing with the heat. Today, Scott and I are headed to CT to help celebrate his grandmother's birthday. It's going to be strange not seeing Shasta there. Then tomorrow, Scott and I are headed to the Bronx for the Yankees game. I'm fully prepared to be returning to work as a nice toasty red lobster.

Guess it's really over now

I finally received my birthday gift from my naive and thoughtless brother in the mail today-a gift card to Sears. Luckily, it's something that will be put to use but I still can't believe the nerve of my brother. He had told me that my card was mailed out on my birthday. I called him about 3 weeks after that to tell him that I never received it. His response...was pretty much nothing. No worries. No care. No, okay, Jen I'll look into it. Nothing. So behold my surprise when I get a card with his writing on it. Of course, no return address. So now I'm debating on letting him know that I got it-he never lets me know when he's received his gifts so I'm wondering how he would feel if it was done to him. It's all do onto others as you want to be treated and respect thy elders, etc.

Thought from last night

Free shots from bartenders are good

Vacation

Well, Scott and I made major progress on our vacation plans for August. We've made our reservations for VT and even though it's about a month away, I'm getting a little excited when thinking about it. It should be fun, hopefully less hot, and relaxing. It should also be exciting because Scott and I will have been together for a year. And I still like him!!!! He still can get to me with a smile or a look. Sigh.... Of course, since we both love waiting to the last minute to do things, we don't know exactly what we're doing. I do know that a trip to Ben and Jerry's will be in order.

Accomplished

For some reason, every time I mail out books, I get a sense of accomplishment. Maybe because I know that the books are getting out of here and to someone who wants them. It makes me feel like that the 1700+ books that I have are being dwindled down, even though the logical side of me knows that it isn't and it seems that the more I try to send books out, the more come in.

Frustrations

Not getting a call back from the doctor's office for a follow-up appointment-I just can never have a normal exam!!!!
Men who continue to think that they need to spread their legs so damn far on the train.
The damn humidity.
PITAs who continually have the need to check on lives that have NOTHING to do with them.
Memories of exes who I don't necessarily want to remember.
Memories of current that I can't recreate at the time that the memory occurs.
Not having seen Denise.
Not having seen Tricia ever in her pregnant state in person.
Not having seen Tracy and her new puppy.

I'm on a roll

It seems like I'm back to the reading pace that I'm used to. So far, I've already completed 5 books and it's not even halfway through the month. Last month I only finished around 7 for the whole month. I guess that I can thank my longer commutes to one of my offices. It could also be because my books have been more entertaining. Whatever it takes is fine with me.

Thought for Tuesday morning

Beautiful Red Sunrise