Monday, July 31, 2006


What a way to come into work. You get to work and everything is unplugged-everything. Computers, ACs, phones, everything. Now to go around and plug everything back in for people. Not what I wanted to do this morning.


Words are not being said
Actions are not always there
Plans need to be discussed
But to talk about them is pushing issues
Does this mean that feelings are changing?

Sunday, July 30, 2006


I went out to Prospect Park this morning to get some exercise in before the heat and humidity got too harsh. I managed to walk for about 40 minutes which is about half the park. There were several people out running, biking, and walking. And, of course, out walking their dogs. Why is it that it seems like so many people have golden retrievers and I don't? I saw almost all of my favorites in the park. Sigh.....Just need to move into a house with a big backyard. But now I'm in for the rest of the day. I really don't want to face the heat and humidity. Really wish that I didn't have to go to work this week just because of the weather. But the plus side is that I don't have to run around like I did in my previous position. I can enjoy the AC.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

New Groups

I decided to create a couple of new yahoo groups. Membership is free. One of them is focused on crafts and the other one is focused on reading and writing. If anyone wants to join in, the links are in the sidebar.

Something New

As per's a new entry for Cathy. Cathy, big wave hi and stop working on Sundays!!!!! Get out to your house and stop working so damn much. I know that you're just trying to avoid certain people at home but don't go to work to do it!!!!!!! :-) At least you're in the AC!

Friday, July 28, 2006

Date Night Lives on

I guess unofficially, Scott and I attempt to go out on a "date" every week or so. It lets us go out and do something different. Tonight we decided to take advantage of one of the restaurants that extended NYC's Restaurant Week. We went to Trio, a Mediterrean restaurant in Kips Bay. It was nice having no one else there eating dinner (yes, we go against typical New Yorkers and had an "early" dinner). Food was decent. Scott had pasta. I had salmon. Conversation was good. One of the better dinner dates in my opinion.
For those of you who do not live in the Big Apple or have never heard of restaurant week, it is where some of the upper scale restaurants set up a 3 course menu of some of their dishes. Patrons get to choose an appetizer, entree, and dessert all for $35. Not bad by NYC standards. I would like to take advantage of this again as Scott and I don't do it often. Just a nicer scale casual dining restaurant.

Thursday, July 27, 2006


Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.


Let this be a warning!

Your Observation Skills Get An A-

Hardly anything gets by you...
You have a great memory and eagle eyes

European City?

You Belong in Dublin

Friendly and down to earth, you want to enjoy Europe without snobbery or pretensions.
You're the perfect person to go wild on a pub crawl... or enjoy a quiet bike ride through the old part of town.


You are Ocean Blue

You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded.
You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

The Plunge

I decided to take the plunge and attempt crocheting again. I had done this with my mom SEVERAL years ago. I don't remember making much more than a chain. So I'm starting again. I had some time to waste this morning before a meeting and stopped in at Michael's, a craft store and picked up a learn how to crochet kit. It comes with a book with some patterns along with some hooks and a few other items. So far, the only amusement that has been had is been by Denise who I keep messaging to let her know of my progress. I'm glad that she's being amused. Oh, and can't forget Boots who basically wants to stalk the yarn and play.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Notion for the morning

Another pretty sunrise. Only wish the cats got along better.


Can I cook or what?

Yoga Update

Well, I survived last night's yoga class. Amy does this on a regular basis and Natalie used to do it in the past. I did enjoy it and I surprised the instructor and think that I surprised Amy a little bit by how much I was able to do, considering that this was my first real yoga class. Some of the positions I was familiar with and enjoy doing. The heat did get to me a couple of times and I had gotten extremely dizzy at one point. But overall, I enjoyed myself and plan on taking advantage of the fact that this week will be free for me. Then I really need to look at my financial situation to see if I could reasonably afford to continue.


where priorities are questioned is worrisome.

Monday, July 24, 2006


It's always interesting reading the past of your current. Makes you wonder if they still feel that way sometimes and how come they don't say much about you.


My high school reunion is coming up in a couple of weeks. I've been noticing the increase of alumni from my high school checking out my blog. I'm very curious to know who exactly has been looking at it-wondering if I liked the person in high school, wondering what they have been up to through the years, etc. I am not going to my reunion however. Scott and I will be attending the wedding of his friends Alice and Morgan-a great couple that I couldn't be happier for. So if any of you alumni (other than Tricia) want to drop a note-please do so.


Today, my coworkers are dragging me to yoga. I guess I should say dragging me because a bigger part of me is willing to go. I just wish that it was being done before work. I'm just hoping that the 1.5 hours goes by quickly and that I don't die from the heat. It should be fun considering I like these coworkers that I'm going with.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Weekend Update

Well, my morning yesterday wasn't all that great but I survived. Then, Scott and I headed to the American Museum of Natural History and the Hayden Planetarium. We watched the show of Cosmic Collisions and we were both irked by some of what was said during the show. How can scientists put a time frame (i.e. an hour) for something that happened billions of years ago. I guess maybe if I was a dumb person who accepted everything as fact, it wouldn't have bothered me. But, obviously, it's still bothering me.
After that we headed to the game store where Scott didn't buy anything and then to Joy for Indian food. Despite how well it tastes, it didn't sit well with me-probably because I hadn't eaten anything yesterday since 8am. Then it was off to home where there was a block obnoxious, annoying, disrespectful block party. They had a DJ whose music...if you can call it music (songs broken up constantly by the DJ) basically vibrated things in our 4th floor apartment. Needless to say both Scott and I were bothered by this. And, of course, our NYPD did nothing about it. They basically stood at the end of the block watching people-gee, cops, why don't you arrest the people that are smoking pot (which was obvious) and tell the DJ to lower his fucking crap!
Hopefully, today will be better. I have to take Tiger to the vet and go grocery shopping. Scott's friend, Matt, is coming over to play games-it will be interesting to see how much playing time I see.


I don't know why this is. I can be happy one second and then pissed off the next. Unfortunately, Scott is the one that takes the blunt of it. And for that, I'm sorry. At least, I'm conscious of this happening so it's a start. In the past, I just didn't care who was receiving my rath, madness, or what you want to call it.

Friday, July 21, 2006


I got a clean bill of health this morning. Woohoo! I have to go back in a few months for another follow-up but everything should be okay.


I'm off for a follow-up appointment. Just hope that it goes well.

Just some cute pet pictures.

I just thought that these were really cute and decided to share them with my part of the world.

It's amazing

I can read something and just have a huge smile on my face. In the past, I would have cared. Now I just think how right I am.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

All I can do

is smirk and shake my head. Give me a break!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Writing Workshop

I just got home from attending a Gotham Writing Workshop at the Barnes and Noble in Lincoln Center. It as a free workshop on the Art of the Short Story. Before I even made it to the workshop, my creative writing juices were flowing. So I was able to jot down some brainstorm ideas on it before class started. I'm glad that I made a point to go to the workshop. Now if only I could afford to take real classes there.

A month

It's been about that long since I had my "last" conversation with Jeremy. During this past month I've done a lot of thinking about my past and my future. I know where I would like my future to go. I can only hope that Scott is thinking the same way and if so, doesn't take forever. Everyday, I'm learning that life is precious and that we could all go just like that. As for my past, I've felt like I was divorced pretty much when I found out that Jeremy lied and betrayed me. And, of course, I'm constantly reminded of it when Donna continues to read about my life. Do I wish things were different? Yes and no. Am I glad that I'm no longer with Jeremy? Yes, because then I wouldn't be with Scott and actually know what being in a healthy relationship means. No, because I do still care about him and always will despite what others would hope for. Do I wish him and Donna happiness? I could really care less what they do. I feel that they will never be 100% happy with each other. If they were, then Jeremy and I never would have gotten together and married. But what they do, is what they do. Do I hope to never see them on the street either by themselves or with each other? Yes. I don't need to feel that hurt again. If I did see them would I turn the other way? Absolutely not. Would I even acknowledge their presence? Would depend on how they reacted to me.
I really want to concentrate on my future, in particular my future with Scott. At times, I feel like we're not going anywhere. At other times, I feel like there will be something more down the road. We are definitely comfortable with each other. It's nice not having to fight everyday like Jeremy and I did. It's nice to have him come home and know that he's with me. Do I want to marry him? I would say yes if he asked me. And he is aware of that. What will the future bring? Something that definitely was not my past......happiness.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

What's worse?

Bratty kids who are fighting or the parents who aren't taking care of their children?


Do you really think that I'm that stupid that I don't know it's you?

Monday, July 17, 2006

Doing another online class

Going through Barnes and Noble University, I saw another class that caught my eye-Writing for Quick Cash. As for the regular viewers of my blog, you know that I'm trying to get my hand into the writing field. I have several reference books at home and I'm thinking about joining some free writing classes throughout the city just to get things started. So I ordered one of my books that I need for the class-already have the other one at home. So hopefully in a couple of weeks, I'll be enjoying another class.

Sunday, July 16, 2006


What to do when things are different then they were. Is it just because things are status quo? Or are there thoughts going through minds that haven't been brought up? When things are different it causes others to wonder. What have I done differently? What can I do to bring it back? Is it just a matter of being comfortable? What's to be done when pasts are brought up? Especially when you understand a little bit of the depths of the past? Mixed emotions enter one's head and it's hard to get rid of them.

Saturday, July 15, 2006


Disgustingly fat


I have a very busy weekend ahead of me. And the only thing I'm not looking forward to is dealing with the heat. Today, Scott and I are headed to CT to help celebrate his grandmother's birthday. It's going to be strange not seeing Shasta there. Then tomorrow, Scott and I are headed to the Bronx for the Yankees game. I'm fully prepared to be returning to work as a nice toasty red lobster.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Guess it's really over now

I finally received my birthday gift from my naive and thoughtless brother in the mail today-a gift card to Sears. Luckily, it's something that will be put to use but I still can't believe the nerve of my brother. He had told me that my card was mailed out on my birthday. I called him about 3 weeks after that to tell him that I never received it. His response...was pretty much nothing. No worries. No care. No, okay, Jen I'll look into it. Nothing. So behold my surprise when I get a card with his writing on it. Of course, no return address. So now I'm debating on letting him know that I got it-he never lets me know when he's received his gifts so I'm wondering how he would feel if it was done to him. It's all do onto others as you want to be treated and respect thy elders, etc.

Thought from last night

Free shots from bartenders are good

Thursday, July 13, 2006


Well, Scott and I made major progress on our vacation plans for August. We've made our reservations for VT and even though it's about a month away, I'm getting a little excited when thinking about it. It should be fun, hopefully less hot, and relaxing. It should also be exciting because Scott and I will have been together for a year. And I still like him!!!! He still can get to me with a smile or a look. Sigh.... Of course, since we both love waiting to the last minute to do things, we don't know exactly what we're doing. I do know that a trip to Ben and Jerry's will be in order.


For some reason, every time I mail out books, I get a sense of accomplishment. Maybe because I know that the books are getting out of here and to someone who wants them. It makes me feel like that the 1700+ books that I have are being dwindled down, even though the logical side of me knows that it isn't and it seems that the more I try to send books out, the more come in.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006


Not getting a call back from the doctor's office for a follow-up appointment-I just can never have a normal exam!!!!
Men who continue to think that they need to spread their legs so damn far on the train.
The damn humidity.
PITAs who continually have the need to check on lives that have NOTHING to do with them.
Memories of exes who I don't necessarily want to remember.
Memories of current that I can't recreate at the time that the memory occurs.
Not having seen Denise.
Not having seen Tricia ever in her pregnant state in person.
Not having seen Tracy and her new puppy.

I'm on a roll

It seems like I'm back to the reading pace that I'm used to. So far, I've already completed 5 books and it's not even halfway through the month. Last month I only finished around 7 for the whole month. I guess that I can thank my longer commutes to one of my offices. It could also be because my books have been more entertaining. Whatever it takes is fine with me.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Monday, July 10, 2006

New Blog Alert

I've decided to write a blog about the DVDs/VHS/movies that I watch since it seems like I'm watching a lot of them. Hope you enjoy.

Major thought for Monday

I laugh at you and your pathetic life

Lunch time

It's lunch and I'm not really all that hungry. Plus, I still feel like crap. I can't seem to have my office temperature adjusted to something comfortable. I don't feel like cooking but I don't want to leave it to Scott because then I'll have to wash dishes-not good. So maybe I can just find something simple to make and call it a day. Ho hum.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Thoughts for Sunday

Being sick sucks
People at work must be bored

Brain gender

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What kind of soul?

You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motiviated to succeed
Actively working to acheive what you want, you are skillful in many areas.
You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding.
You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force.

An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people.
You tend to have an explosive personality, but also a good sense of humor.
People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all.
You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone.

Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul


What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.

You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.

Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Animal Personality

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale

You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

What the F*%#? OMG

You Are Most Like George W. Bush

So what if you're not exactly popular? You still rule the free world.
And while you may be quite conservative now, you knew how to party back in the day!


You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

Asian Country

You Should Travel to Cambodia

While you might not go all Angelina Jolie and adopt a baby...
You can still appreciate Cambodia's rich history and deserted beaches.

Thoughts for Saturday

Have I gone to more Mets games than Jeremy now that we're no longer?
Things are looking up.
Game time!!!

Friday, July 07, 2006

How not to do work

Make sure that your company's network system crashes. Note, you need to make sure that all of your paperwork is on your personal network drive so when the network system crashes, you cannot access your personal drive.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Another night

by my lonesome. I really shouldn't complain about it. Of course, I wasn't expecting Scott to be going over to Matt's this week and had taken meat out to defrost and I had to cook it up tonight before it went bad. And can I tell ya something? I can cook! Something that Jeremy never really had the chance to experience but that's his loss. I made some Southwestern Mac and Cheese from my WW cookbook. Pretty damn tasty if I say so myself. So now I need to find something to do before Big Brother starts tonight. I kinda wish that I wasn't by myself as I've had a migraine all day long but I don't know if Scott being here would help-he's been kinda low energy lately and it's been getting to me. I almost wonder if this is what Mike, Sal, Jeremy, and Shondu experienced while being with me. So, anyway, I hope that Scott is having fun getting his haircut right now and then playing Sea Strike with Matt. I'm sure that I'll find something to do-I think that Poker is calling me right now since I don't feel like watching this Rachel repeat.

Thoughts for the day

Training can be extremely painful...especially when having a migraine
Gotta love kiss asses
Still being pathetic
How much can one take?

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Major thoughts for today

Fuckin' tourists!!!!!!!!
Fuckin' rain!!!!!!!!
Trouble in paradise


Finally did a whole workout this morning. Hopefully this will be the start of something. I still need to sign back up with my gym but I'm thinking about waiting until Scott and I go on vacation next month. I'll probably go back this week and check to see how much it's going to cost me before I make a final decision.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Thoughts for Monday

Why is it that when I don't bring a journal, I have lots of ideas?
Again, why the hell do guys feel the need to spread their legs out so wide? Guess what! I have big thighs and need to air myself out-close your damn legs-your packages are NOT that big.
Do I have a sign on me that says rest on me?
Going back to where you had your "honeymoon" can make you feel a little awkward especially when 3 years later, you're divorced.
I like the beach!!!!
Zeit takes up way too much room sometimes.

Sunday, July 02, 2006


Is it alive or dead these days?
What happens when your idea of romance does not always agree with the one that you're with?
Do you agree to sacriface an intregal part of yourself? Or do you do what you can to have your ideas of romance be a part of the relationship?
What happens when you try and they get cast aside?
Do you then just hold onto your ideas of romance through movies?