Thoughts for Friday

Where is she?
Can you be anymore pathetic?
Will I ever have a normal exam?
Well, I guess I survived.
I'm extremely lucky to have Scott on my side.

From a yahoo group friend

Thoughts for today

1 shower or 2?
I'm being watched over by my kids of the past
Is it just me or are more people sleeping on the train these days?
Isn't miscommunication just wonderful?
Cops causing car accidents-gotta love it.

Finished my class

I finished my forensics class today. I have to say that it was pretty informative and fun trying to solve 2 cases. I'll probably be taking some more online classes to learn other things that I'm interested in.

10 Years

10 Freakin' Years
Okay, so I'm stealing this from Kristie, who got it from somewhere else, I believe. Neat how that works.

Ten years ago, it was 1996. Take this survey, post the results, and see how many things have changed since then.

1) How old were you?
THEN: 19/20
NOW: 29/30

2) Where did you go to school?
THEN: Southampton College of Long Island University
NOW: I probably should finish up my Master's-so maybe I'll finish it at Fordham

3) Where did you work?
THEN: I didn't-was going to school full-time-I might have been tutoring
NOW: as a social worker

4) Where did you live?
THEN: in a dorm
NOW: Brooklyn

5) How was your hairstyle?
THEN: long-no real style
NOW: growing it out-kinda long with layers

6) Did you wear braces?
THEN: No.
NOW: No.

7) Did you wear contacts?
THEN: Yes.
NOW: no

8) Did you wear glasses?
THEN: yes
NOW: yes

9) Who was your best friend?
THEN: Mike, Tracy, Tricia, Ken
NOW: Tracy, Tricia, Scott, Ken

10) Which of your pets were still alive?
THEN: I had a hermit crab
NOW: Zeit, Suzie, Tiger, Boots, Jul

11) Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend?
THEN: Kinda Mike, Eric and Erik
NOW: Scott :-)

12) Who was your celebrity crush?
THEN: Andre Agassi, Kevin Costner, Denzel Washington
NOW: Andre Agassi, Denzel Washington, Taye Diggs

13) Who was your regular-person crush?
THEN: Mike, Ken
NOW: Ken

14) How many piercings did you have?
THEN: two in each ear.
NOW: Same.

15) How many tattoos did you have?
THEN: None.
NOW: 2

16) What was your favorite band/singer?
THEN: Metallica, Tori Amos
NOW: Live, Tori Amos

17) Had you smoked cigarettes?
THEN: yes
NOW: No.

18) Had you gotten drunk?
THEN: yes
NOW: I guess

19) Had you DRIVEN?
THEN: Yes.
NOW: Yes.

20) If so which car?
THEN: 1988 Pontiac Lemans
NOW: don't have one

21) Looking back, are you where you thought you would be in 2006?
Definitely not.

Motivation...or lack there of

I cannot seem to get any motivation to get back on an exercise regime. I start a dvd and then stop after about 5 or 10 miinutes. It's not like the dvds are bad. I just can't stick with it. It could be because I still can't afford a gym membership yet and that has me a little bummed. I need to do something before my clothes really start to not fit me.

Thoughts for the day...

Mush is great-especially when accompanied by cat hair
If you dislike me so much, why do you bother to check on my life?
Good thing I'm happy
What to do? What to do?
Scott's friends are wacky.
Will I be able to not cry if and when I get remarried?
Zeit hogs the couch, the bed, the floor, whatever she can lie on.
Cats should not have soda flicked on them.
What to do? What to do?
Finally....training is over and done with.
Can my boss be anymore obnoxious at a training?
Who knows when I'll be in my other office which opens next week.
The past will never seem to let go.
I'm sick and tired of residing in the Big Apple and really want to get out.
What to do? What to do?

Just when I thought it was safe

It came back to pay a visit during their work day.
Oh well-see how it looks and feels to have moved on and away from the stupid chaos!

Training Days

Ho hum. The last training day for me-a refresher of what I've been sitting in the past 2 days!!! And to start it all off, I'm a trainer in what I was being "trained" in Monday and Tuesday. Doesn't make sense does it? I can understand taking the refresher training today-which is supposed to be geared towards trainers-but not the past 2 days when I'm already a trainer. Yes, it was okay to sit there and get a refresher from the developer BUT to then be there today? No sense. And it's all thanks to the Head Hancho. Could be worse, of course. But still, 3 days?!?!?!?

"Run Away! Run Away!"

Last night, Scott and i went to see Spamalot on Broadway. I highly recommend it to any fan of Monty Python. It's similar to The Holy Grail but enough has been changed with new jokes that it doesn't seem like the jokes are played out. It was also great to see that Eric Idle, who wrote it, doesn't take himself seriously. Spamalot spoofed on almost anything, including Broadway musicals and what goes into a Broadway musical. Both Scott and I laughed out loud during several parts. The casting was decent-no real famous names but still great singing and dancing. I'm glad that I've been able to see it as I had been wanting to see it since it came out last year.

Finished my first short story in years

Had some time to finish up my short story that I started a couple of months ago. I'm impressed that I was able to finish it. Now I just have to type it on Scott's laptop-which will be a review-and then have my editor for life (Scott) read and tear it apart when he gets the chance.
It's a story about overcoming a major obstacle. It was an idea that I had running in my head for a while and, of course, while writing it, it took a life of it's own. So I still have an original idea bopping around in my head. And I still have my Kill, The Urge Is In Me series of poetry. I can always come up with additional ones for that!

Finished another project

I seem to be on a roll lately. Even though, my anklet isn't too complicated, I finished it last night. I'm still not sure what I'll be doing next-probably a needlepoint for my friend's mother-a repeated project of something I made for my mother for Mother's Day. I do also have several other projects that have been started and need to be completed. And, who can forget, all the latch hooks kits that are in the back room that still need to be done? Unfortunately, some don't have a home to go to anymore-gifts that were going to be made for my ex and his family. Oh well.

Ken really does exist!

For those of you who have teased me for too many years about Ken only being a doll, I have a witness that has seen him!
My friend from work, Allison and I went to see Journey and Def Leppard last night at Jones Beach and Ken was also there with his girlfriend. I knew that he was going but wasn't expecting him to be sitting about 12 rows in front of me. And seeing him brought back several memories. I've been friends with him for 13 years and have lusted after him for most of those years. Yes, he has returned the lustful feelings so it hasn't been a complete waste of my emotions. Ken would be the one big temptation. But seeing Ken also reinforced my feelings of never wanting or needing to cheat on Scott. Something that still surprises me at times. Guess that when you are in a positive relationship without little girls from the past butting in you can remain focused on that positive relationship.

Sports News Update

Andre Agassi is retiring after the US Open this summer. Now for me, this is probably the end of tennis for a while. I've enjoyed watching Andre play ever since he first stepped out on the pro circuit with his wild and crazy hair. I've been a fan of his since then and never wavered. I cried when he won Wimbledon. I've cried when I first watched him practice with his then coach, Brad Gilbert, at the US Open several years ago. This year, Scott and I are going to the US Open and hopefully, he will be playing the first night like he used to.

A Few of My Favorite Things

Scott
Zeit
Suzie
Tiger
Boots
Jul
Crackhead Cuz
Finally having a stable office
Bosses who lend me their DVDs
Bosses who understand that animals are more important than the humans that we serve.
Friends who will never have me be a godparent for their children.
Friends who have major arguments are able to put the past behind and friends again.
The freedom of going to relive my youth and seeing Def Leppard in concert-despite the hellish commute.
The fact that I was able to see my favorite band on my birthday.
The ability to read.
The ability to understand and enjoy games.
Cooking a kick ass meal
When someone else cooks a kick ass meal.
A good cup of joe made by me.
A good cup of Joe made by someone else and it's free.
Being divorced.
Knowing I have a future.
Seeing Scott come home.
Going on vacation.
Seeing Andre Agassi play at the US Open.
Getting a hug and being called Sweetheart by Denzel Washington.
Being 2 feet away from stealing Colin Quinn's leather jacket.
Knowing that I will not be spending the rest of my life in the Big Apple.
Finishing craft projects.
Walking in the rain.
Seeing a flashing neon number.
Being in love.

-all of these are in no particular order

Decided to treat myself

with my next craft project-an anklet. Since I'm slightly ahead of schedule, I figured that I could start an anklet for me and if I need to start a new scheduled project, then I could. The anklet is of pastel colors-hopefully Scott will show me how to download pictures from his digital so I can upload them onto my blog as I have several finished craft projects that I want to exhibit.
Also, I decided to rejoin my gym. So today, I'm going to sign back up. I'll probably be going before work like I used to. I'm just so sick and tired of looking at what I call, this disgusting body. I've gained too much weight over the past year (could only imagine why with the problems with Jeremy and money). So I need to do this for myself, so I can be happy with myself. Maybe this will spark something in Scott as he has stated that he isn't happy with the way that he looks either (even though, to me, he's fine).

Pathetic

I guess I'm just not supposed to be left alone by my past. I got an email from my ex-husband's girlfriend telling me to grow up, etc. Of course, she's responding to something that was written over a week ago and all she does is focus on how I gave my ex-husband my blogsite information-not her mind you but him and by mistake no less. Not even worth responding to now. I do have to admit that when I saw it, all I did was laugh, forward it to my ex and let it go. For some reason, the past continues to linger. I hope that they find something that they like. All I can say is that go ahead, read about my life, and see how I've moved on. See how I'm happy. If I write something that pisses you off-good. If I write something that makes you laugh or smile-even better. Just don't bother me. For you to go on my site everyday and like today, at least 3 times, it's just pathetic.

Just have to say.....

that I'm an extremely lucky person. I'm in love and am loved back. I have a decent job. I have my crackhead. I have my friends. Sure, things will always be wanted but right now, I don't need them. So to those that I've mentioned, just want to tell you that I appreciate having you in my life.

Let it go

Are you that afraid that I'll say something about you or the one that you're with? Are you jealous of what a happy life looks like? Are you just bored at work? Just let it go. I have nothing left to say to you or the one that you're with. It's over. The situation is over. Go on and try to be happy with your life. Don't bother looking in the past. If I need to contact you, I will. If I need to contact the person that you're with, I will. Just let it go.

2nd week

It's the start of my second week with my own people. I have to say that I have a small advantage over others in the fact that I'm dealing with a small amount of people compared to others. This is also my challenge as most of these people know each other and have a strong relationship with each other. At least I tentatively have meetings scheduled. And I have 17 cases to deal with. Now if only the supplies would come.