Well......

I started the temp job today. Got a huge chunk of the filing of current cases done but there is still a lot to do. They're claiming that they are going to keep us for the next 30 days but Jen and I are thinking, "What the hell are we going to do once these cases are filed?" We can only make so many calls to families and agencies.
I also handed in several applications to places like Michaels, JoAnn Fabrics, World Market, etc. I have to find something. The bills are not going away.

Weekend

Well, the cookout was a success in my book-good food (how I ended up cooking it, I will never understand). Dogs had fun. Joey and I threw a frisbee around for a little bit. Then we came home and pretty much did our own things.
Today, I'm planning on seeing Spooked with a ghost-hunting group here in Raleigh. It's being shown at a local library where I conveniently have to return a book. I'm also planning on hitting a few stores with my resume to fill out job applications so I can get something. I'm approaching the desperate stage.

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Einstein Quote

"May the conscience and the common sense of the peoples be awakened, so that we may reach a new stage in the life of nations, where people will look back on war as an incomprehensible aberration of their forefathers!"

4th of July

First, happy birthday to my dad...I've already spoken with him this morning. What sucks is that I'm supposed to be with him and my mom for the weekend...damn employment situation...
Today, I'm going to be hanging out with some former coworkers and having a little picnic/cookout. It's interesting considering that we all don't have money and we're somehow making it work. The hanging out with each other is much more important than the food in my opinion.
So to the fellow USAers, have a great day off from work!

Latest on the job front

I went into my old office yesterday to volunteerily meet with the governing agency to triage the clients. It took about 2 and a half hours for my friend Jen and I to go through almost everyone. Jen and I also agreed to temporarily work for the county to help transition these families to their new agencies. So at least I have some little money coming in but the job isn't going to last long.
Tuesday evening, I had found out that some people received the rest of their May pay...you can imagine how livid I was because I wasn't like everyone else and refused to work or had their contract terminated. So yesterday, I had the pleasure of confronting my former supervisor. I had a feeling about what excuse she was going to use (the people had continued to be there) and was told that after their meeting with the lawyers they could only make 2 checks-one to the person who can bill (which I'm fine with) and the lawyers (why the fuck should they get a check before everyone else? No offense to any lawyers out there-just a little frustration). So now I really have no idea if I'll get paid and if so, when.
I completely feel like I did when I was married and could never get a straight answer. At least, then I was only dealing with Jeremy and Donna. This time, it's a whole bunch of people and it's beyond frustrating.
And then to top it all off....I didn't get the job I had recently interviewed for. My resume has been sent off to various places and I haven't really gotten any callbacks. I'm debating on if I should hit the pavements and go to store to store to see if they're hiring.

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Well, I did it

I've started my selling craft blog. Please check it out. I welcome any thoughts to improve it.

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Einstein Quote

"The true value of a human being is determined primarily by the measure and the sense in which he has attained to liberation from the self."

First Day of True Unemployment

And what have I done? I actually slept in...a miracle for any of you out there that know me in real life. Did my usual internet surfing. I did go for a 3 mile walk around the lake that Joey and I live on. Went to the bank to deposit money (thank you Daddy and Joey). Hung out by the pool to catch some sun and finished a book. And now it's almost 2pm and I'm just basically doing nothing. Laundry is going-that's always fun. Sigh...this better end soon. I do have an interview tomorrow. Doing something that I have no experience doing and probably won't get it but I'll try anyway...unless of course, I opt out on not doing it. It's a sales job and I'm not a fan of doing sales so.... Now I'm off to find more places to send my resume to.

Unemployed

Still haven't broken down but I'm finding it a little dangerous that I'm more wanting to drink beer at all hours of the day instead of what I normally drink. Gotta keep an eye on that.
I'm trying to look at this as a little vacation where I'm not getting paid and I can't afford to go anywhere.
I did file for unemployment yesterday so we'll see if I get anything from that.
Man, this sucks.

Insomnia

Well, it's almost 4am and I've been up since 2:45. Now some of you who know me would think that it's because I go to bed early or that jokingly this is my normal time to wake up. Wish that was the case. I'm up because I can't relax and get my mind off of my employment situation. Today will be my last day at the agency as I cannot afford the gas money to keep going and not be paid.
I'm also concerned that I haven't even begun to break down about the whole situation. The only tears that have been shed were when I was writing the email to my father requesting money. Maybe later on today, after I leave...but of course I'll blame it on the fact that I'm so tired.

Interview

I just got home from the interview. I think that it went well. She told me that she's interested and will let me know by next Thursday. Thank you to all of you who had their fingers crossed and wished me luck. I'll let everyone know as soon as I do.

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Einstein Quote

"Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts."

On the stitching front

I did manage to do some stitching Sunday. This is the latest on my the gift for my mom.

It's Official

I have no job. We received word today that we did not get our contracts back so basically, there is nothing. Probably not going to get the rest of my pay that is owed PLUS my pay for June. They expect/hope that I'll stick around to help close and transfer the clients but I have no idea if I'm even going to stick around to do it. I'll finish what I was doing and file what I can, but I have no idea if I'll even do any transfers.
The good news is that I do have a job interview Thursday afternoon with the same agency as I had before. Please keep your fingers crossed for me.

Work Saga

Well, my agency made the paper and not for a good reason. Luckily, the article was very short and basically just focused on us needing to pay THOUSANDS of dollars back. Because of this and other financial woes, there is no guarantee that we will be getting the rest of our paycheck next week. And there is no plan after next Monday if we will get another or what happens to the agency if we don't get our contracts renewed. Everyone is in a tizzie about what they are going to do and everyone is miserable.

A Rainy Weekend

What better to do on a rainy weekend but watch movies, read, and take a nap? That's what I ended up doing yesterday while Joey was at work. Then we headed out so he could get some computer software for his audio production schooling, Barnes and Noble where I had a gift card for, and Sears where I had another gift card for. I got me some books (like I need anymore) and a vacuum cleaner. It's amazing how dirty an apartment can get....
Today, I'll probably do some work, watch some more movies, and relax.

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SBQ

This week's SBQ is:

Do you currently subscribe to any stitching publications or have you
in the past? (Either in print or online) If so, which ones?

I have subscribed to Cross Stitcher in the past but since it's an overseas magazine, I can't afford the cost anymore. :(

Happy Birthday Garfield!

On the job front

Well, I didn't get the job that I interviewed for. I'm not really that surprised as my interview was several weeks after I sent my resume. But, on the positive side (there's me trying to be positive again), I was asked if I would consider a different position. This one would be supervising the foster care unit of the agency. I told them yes and am waiting to hear back regarding me returning for an interview for that position. My only concern is that the person that would be my supervisor is the woman that I didn't get a positive vibe from when I went in for the original interview. Well, we shall see.

Ansel Adams

Trying to stay positive

In the midst of financial bs at the job and the very low morale of people that I work with, I've been trying to stay as positive as I can. I learned a long time ago that remaining negative doesn't cut it. So I've been basically trying to isolate myself from everyone at work since no one is happy. I've been able to accomplish some of the things that have been lingering over my head but then it seems that everyone wants a piece of me at once. So a small thing to be positive about.
I had received a package from Carmax that had to deal with the error on my title for the wrecked car. I was hoping that it was because someone from my lienholder agency actually contacted them to help correct the error. Nope, it was just because someone happened to be going over the records and saw the error. Either way, I hope that this is a small step in correcting the problem with the insurance check going to the appropriate agency and I won't have to see my sad looking car anymore in the parking lot. So that's another small thing to be positive about.

Einstein Quote

"Computers are incredibly fast, accurate and stupid. Human beings are incredibly slow, inaccurate and brilliant."

Ansel Adams

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Weekend

I can actually say I had a relaxing weekend. Friday afternoon/evening, Joey and I just vegged out-went out to dinner and stopped by GameStop. Saturday we went to Umstead State Park-a place that neither one of us had been to. Despite losing car keys (by Joey) and walking in flipflops for almost 3 miles (by me), we really had a good time. We saw a beautiful young buck in the forest. I definitely want to go back, even if it's by myself so I can go walking. Of course, not in flipflops again.
Sunday, we headed to the library where we had another little adventure. We noticed the traffic lights were out and were curious on what caused the power outage. When we got to the library, there was a minor bit of chaos. No lights, people stuck in the elevators, others waiting for the computers. Joey and I proceeded to look for his books for his research paper for school (I can't even begin to tell you how proud of Joey I am in regards to how well he's doing in school). As we were being told by one of the library staff that we wouldn't be able to check out the books or even get me a library card (anyone else remember the good ole days when everything was done by paper?), the power came back. Joey was able to get his books and I was able to get my card.
After a somewhat emotional rollercoaster thanks to work and a couple of other incidents, I'm glad to have the weekend I just had...even though CSI PS2 game is frustrating me!

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I Survived Friday the 13th

And it held up to the evil stereotype that it has. Found out yesterday that I'm not getting my full paycheck on Monday. Wow...thank you for giving me ANOTHER reason to leave my job. Needless to say, not a lot of people worked yesterday. We kinda just hung around the office.
I haven't heard back from the people that I interviewed with last week. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed.
I haven't done a crafting thing in I don't know how long. I'm going to try to make that a focus for some part of my day today.
Hope that everyone's Friday the 13th was better than mine.

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Einstein Quote

Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.

Einstein Quote

Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius - and a lot of courage - to move in the opposite direction.

Einstein Quote

Any fool can know. The point is to understand.

Weekend

I had fun watching Sex and the City Saturday afternoon. Did a little shopping and price comparing before the movie as I waited for my friends. Yesterday, I basically did a little work, watched movies, and even finished a book.
Now it's back to the dreaded grind. Hopefully I'll be able to get some work done so I won't have to take so much back home.

Interview

I had my interview yesterday afternoon and I think that it went okay. I interviewed with two women. One, loves my experience and I was able to answer her questions pretty well. The other, I feel that I just didn't answer her questions the right way. Like I would be talking and then forget what I was really trying to say. I should find out in the next week or so if I get a second interview. The person that likes my experiences emphasized that she was making calls starting early next week so...We shall see.
In other news, I'm heading out today to see Sex in the City with a couple of women from work. Should make for a fun afternoon as all we did yesterday was rotate in each other's offices avoiding work.

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NC=Hell?

Well this is the start of the 3 H's for 2008. Hot, hazy, and humid. It's supposed to be in the high 90's feeling like 105. This was the one thing that made me hesitate about moving down here in the first place. I figure that if I was able to handle the heat and humidity in NYC (gotta love all the blacktop) and Florida in August, I should be able to handle NC.
In other news, I got the job interview for tomorrow afternoon. Hopefully I can get the job as things at my current agency have really been going to hell in a handbasket. People being served by the sheriff's department....not good. Plus me working 12 hours a day has got to stop.

Pictures of my car after the accident

It doesn't look like my car was totalled but that's what the insurance company determined. Sigh....

Plans for the weekend

Well, first a happy birthday to a dear friend, Ken.
Today, Joey and I are meeting up with my friend Julie to see Indiana Jones and I'm finally going to meet her other dog Roscoe. I met her Lucy when she brought her into work...that's how I know Julie.
Joey's car is still not working. It's slightly driveable but he will probably get stuck someone once again if the fuel pump isn't taken care of so last night we got it towed to a mechanic he has used before. We're both hoping it's not going to cost as much as it's estimated. So until it gets fixed, we're on one car. So not too many plans are going to be made because of money.
Hope everyone has a great weekend. I'll have my review of Indy up later on my movie blog (check sidebar for link).

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Einstein Quote

"If people are good only because they fear punishment, and hope for reward, then we are a sorry lot indeed."

It's Always Something

Let's see...you know about my ordeal with work. Now, yesterday, the car that I got in an accident with in January was returned to me all because of Wells Fargo. If anyone works there I would love to speak with you and try to get the company the settlement check. It's a very long saga story and I really don't want to rehash it. And then today, Joey's car breaks down and is undriveable as he's trying to help his friend Chris move his stuff. It just seems like just when things settle down...something else comes up to disturb the peace.

In the Work World of Ollie

My boss, also one of the founders of my agency, announced that she's leaving yesterday. She'll be officially leaving sometime in August. Part of me is thinking that it's about time and finally we can get the agency to where it should be. Another part of me is thinking that it's too little too late despite the rest of the head honchos wanting me to stay on board.

Happy Dance

Here's the picture of the needlepoint for my aunt and uncle. Now I just have to find a frame or get it framed for their cottage which is moose-themed. Sorry that the picture is a little blurry.

Memorial Day 2008

I had a very relaxing day. I said a silent thank you to my deceased grandfathers for their contribution to the Armed Forces in the morning and spent most of the day playing a new video game-The Lost Crown. Last night, I watched a movie and actually did some craft stuff-the stamped needlepoint for my aunt and uncle. I'll probably be done with that in another session or two. Once it's completed, I'll post a picture.

Weekend

Haven't done much this weekend. Joey and I did hit Target yesterday and I got a new floor lamp along with a new PC game and a few other little things. I took a nice long nap and then watched Homicide the rest of the day. Today is probably going to be more of the same.

Work

Well, the audit went over okay. Charts were still not done in time but luckily they allowed for us to pick some to review and they went over others that were reviewed back in December. Minor things need to be fixed and are already in the process of being done. The one thing that infuriated me on Friday was that my boss felt it was more important to go to her daughter's dance recital (bear in mind it was the fourth one in a 2-week time span and she went to all the previous ones) than to either help or even stay for the audit. And this is her agency! So I'm basically through.

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Today's the day....

Audit time. Needless to say, I was extremely annoyed and then even got enraged. I heard that my boss, the founder of the agency, came into the conference room that we were using...I happened to be out of the room at the time...and had a blank look on her face like she didn't understand what we were doing. WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!?!??!?! I was so angered when I heard that I had to leave the room and went to talk to the executive director. Here we are, trying to salvage her agency because she and her former partners screwed it up. I was so pissed. In fact, I still am....maybe it's because I worked 11.5 hours yesterday going through charts, never got a thank you or can I help you from her or others, my workers weren't there like they were supposed to be, I got hardly any sleep, and am already here to go through more charts before the auditors come this afternoon. Damn this job.

Einstein Quote

"The state of mind which enables a man to do work of this kind is akin to that of the religious worshiper or the lover; the daily effort comes from no deliberate intention or program, but straight from the heart."

Just when you thought it couldn't get worse...

I found out yesterday that my agency is being audited on Friday. It is a follow-up to December's audit but it's basically a complete audit. Now, if people just gave a damn about the charts and crap like I've been fighting about for the last few months, I would be okay. But, no...our charts are still shit. And the head honchos are trying to run me ragged in getting stuff that I don't have time to get. Sometimes I really hate being in the social work field.

Life...

Well, I'm back to the grind at work and not thrilled by it. Funny thing happened yesterday...as I was driving in, the tension in my neck and shoulders got tighter and tighter the closer I got to work. So what do you think that means? On the good side, I had a phone interview yesterday afternoon for a position closer to home and from my resume that I had sent in the previous day. It sounds interesting and it has benefits and higher pay. Keep your fingers crossed.

Happiness is....

another Tori Amos live CD...Thanks Joey.

Rockin' Out

Yesterday, I had the pleasure of listening to Joey play drums with two of his former bandmates and best friends, Patrick and Jeff. Not bad for a trio of guys who have played together for 10+ years. These guys are extremely talented and it's a real shame that every time they have tried to create a band and have it stick, it's never worked out...mostly due to personality conflicts. They all told me that they haven't played together for at least 2 years or so...it seemed like to me they picked up exactly where they left off. It was good to see another side of Joey and get to know his best friends a little bit.
Also, Patrick has these two beyond adorable dogs...Parker and Rocky. Parker's a beagle and Rocky is a puppy mutt. Both extremely sweet. And I had the pleasure of making sure that they were okay with the ruckus. Hard job but someone had to do it.

Cats and the strange places they sleep

My last day.....

and I have the pleasure of heading into work...at least it's only to pick up my paycheck. And I'll be giving some work back to people.
Yesterday, I ended up going to both Michael's and AC Moore. I only picked up some yarn that was on sale...now if I could only find my crochet stuff...and a hoop for my needlework...finally got one as attempting to do my mom's teapot wasn't really working well without a hoop.
I also watched Homicide and watched Boots sleeping in a box...I'll post a picture later.
Joey and I went out for Indian last night. Despite the poor quality of service and the flies that wanted in our food....the food was EXCELLENT. It was as good as the restaurant, Joy, that Scott and I used to go to in New York City. Unfortunately for Scott, it's no longer there.

Day # 4 and counting

And so far my plans for today are not happening as I was supposed to be getting paid today but no one is getting paid until tomorrow...another example of why I love my job.
After going to the lake yesterday, I watched another movie and reviewed some progress notes. Yes, I know I'm supposed to be on vacation but they need to be done. Last night I went through more stuff...stuff that never even should have made it to Scott's place. Oh well, it will now be discarded.
Today is pretty much up in the air of what I'm going to do.

Pics from this morning

These were taken by my camera phone. I went to the lake to feed the ducks and geese and then sat down and watched them. These are from when I was sitting down and watching them.

Day #3

Well, today was going to be my beach day but with the weather not wanting to cooperate, it's going to be errand day instead.
Yesterday, I managed to finish the Netflix movies that were here, went through my pictures over the years (way too many of Sal and Jeremy and none of Scott), and just overall relaxed.
So far not too bad of a vacation. Of course, because I'm who I am, I'm still checking in at work...gotta know if I have a job to return to...and so far I do, for right now.

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Does anyone else notice that I love Goldens?

The Spring Vacation Continues.....

I had the pleasure of spending some of it with Joey yesterday afternoon. He got off of work early and came home before he headed off to school last night.
I ended up catching up on some TV and watched A Chorus Line. I also went through some bags that haven't been unpacked since I moved in with Scott. Found some things that I had been looking for.
Today I'll be watching some more movies and going through some more boxes and bags. Maybe go to the lake and feed the birds.
I am still debating on if I'm going to head to the coast or not. The weather isn't going to be all that warm (beach warm) so it would be kinda pointless in spending the money for gas to go to the beach and not really be able to enjoy the warmth.

Helpful Kitty (or at least trying to be)

This is Suzie

Possessed Kitty

This is Boots

Stitching update

This is the latest on the teapot for my mom...finally decided to play around with the digital camera and Joey's computer.

How I'm Spending My Spring Vacation

Today....no work....woohoo! I've already caught up on Survivor....another season where the person I wanted to win didn't win. At least this time I don't completely hate the winner.
Not sure what else I'm going to do today. Probably finish catching up on Lost and color my hair...gotta hide those grays!
Other than that...relax....relax.....relax

Another number added to my age

But first...Happy Mother's Day to all the mom's out there.

Yup, this year, my birthday falls on mom's day. Last night, Joey took me out for dinner. Ended up being beer and buffalo wings. Then we hit a music/vido store where I picked up the latest Def Leppard and Counting Crows CDs along with Inside Man DVD. Today, I don't have much planned. Going to probably watch some movies and get groceries. Maybe even do some laundry...how exciting! What I hate is that I can't remember what I did last year. Sorry Scott-can you remember? I think that seeing Live on my 30th has blinded me for all birthdays to come!

A day before my birthday and where am I?

In the office...going through charts. I'm surprisingly in a decent mood....probably because I know I won't be here until the 19th after today. Woohoo.

Good advice

Thank you Jim Davis

Determination

I was determined last night to NOT do any work at home after 5pm. I actually managed to do it. I even managed to turn my mind off of it when I started thinking about work. I did some work on the needlepoint project that I'm working on for my aunt and uncle. No pictures as I'm still learning how to upload the pictures from my camera to Joey's computer.
I even pampered myself by taking a bubblebath and relaxing.
However, I ended up sleeping on the living room floor because when Joey came to bed, I couldn't go back to sleep. So in order to not toss and turn and wake him up and steal the covers, I left.
Maybe that's why I got so heated and upset during a meeting this morning. I just don't understand what it has to take for people to listen to workers who actually do their job and make the best tries to do their job appropriately but because the so called team leader doesn't communicate crap, it gets blamed onto my worker. I'm really close to saying fuck this job and social work. People need to listen, especially to stuff that they don't want to listen to. And, even better, admit when they have fucked up and try to remedy the situation before it gets to the point of where it's at now.
So now I'm home. Frustrated with myself because I ended up in tears at work. Frustrated that I forgot something at work in order to do some paperwork and I refuse to do it twice. So now, I can go and attempt to go through the latest progress notes that I also brought home.
Thank God I'm on vacation next week.

Realization

I'm angry. Very very angry. And no matter how well I think I'm hiding it, it isn't working. You know it's bad when your boss calls you a troll. I don't know if it's because I'm exhausted. Sick and tired of being lied to. Just the general dealing as a supervisor. Not having a couch or chair to relax in when I get home. What I went through a few weeks ago. Knowing that I'll be on vacation from work but have no plans of doing anything or going anywhere. I'm not happy. Now in order to change some things, it will be huge risks that I'm not 100% sure I'm ready or willing to try to do. But, then again, I may never be and I could be miserable for the rest of my life which isn't fair to me.
I've been going through some things the last month or so and it's all taking it's toll on me. The surgery, the not seeing Joey as much due to his going back to school, being lied to at work, not being listened to at work or at home, the finding out that my parents are moving to Kentucky, the seeing my past get hurt and me wanting to physically be there for them, the constant driving and watching the gas prices go up and up.
I wish I had the money or at least contact with a massage therapist to get a proper body massage and to try to relax. I feel like I can't enjoy the things that I like to do (crafting, reading, etc) because I'm always thinking about work no matter how hard I try to leave it at work (doesn't help when I bring home the paperwork). I wish I could not be so tired and do the crafting I want to do. I almost wish I had my subway commute back so I could be reading as much as I used...almost you NYers out there.
My boss asked me today what she/they as in the agency, could do to help me not breakdown. I just wanted to go on a tirade with that one. I'm like, where do you want me to start? The lying, the petty arguments in front of my staff that they don't need to witness, the lack of communication, the constant attempts of putting a square peg in a round hole?
I think that my social work career is finally coming to a head and I need to figure out how much longer do I stay in it and how daring do I want to be in going ahead in doing something different and then figure out what that something different is. I'm tired of helping others. I'm tired of people in general. I would love to just be a hermit for a while and not have to deal with anyone.
I know that some will read this and feel they shouldn't come to me about their problems. If I really am your friend and have been recently helping you or at least listening to you, you don't need to stop coming to me. I'm just frustrated with my job and my future.

Another Monday

and I feel like I've never left my agency's building. I'm actually locking myself in my office to focus on getting some of this paperwork finished that has been building up and piling up.
Yesterday, I could have fallen asleep at 5 or 6 pm. And to come home and have an argument doesn't help the stressful situation that I've seem to put myself in.

Welcome to Hell

At least that's how I'm feeling this weekend. I worked yesterday. I'm working today...why you might ask? Because people haven't been doing their jobs and no one was held accountable. So now I have the pleasure along with a couple of others to go in on a nice weekend and do crap to make sure that the agency doesn't end up closing.
At least today, one of my workers brought in her dog.

You know it's bad when...

EVERY dream you have is about work.

Comfort is....

listening to the purr of your cat whether she be on your head while you're trying to sleep or on your chest as you're trying to type

Sadness

I got the call last night. My parents are moving and are going to be selling my childhood home. The home that I've been able to call home since I was 3. Yes, I haven't lived there since I was 22 but over the last 10 years and all of my moves, it was the one place that I could always call home, no matter what. Now it's all changing. I'm not happy about it at all. I knew that it was coming. I just didn't expect it to be happening now. I'm debating on asking them if they need/want me to come up to help them pack up the stuff, fearing that it will be too emotional.

Friday's Feast

This week's Friday's Feast:

Appetizer

What was your favorite cartoon when you were a child?
-Looney Toons

Soup

Pretend you are about to get a new pet. Which animal would you pick, and what would you name it?
-Dog-golden Retriever-would have to see the personality before the name.

Salad

On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how much do you enjoy getting all dressed up for a special occasion?
2

Main Course

What kind of music do you listen to while you drive?
-usually listen to sports radio or rock

Dessert

When was the last time you bought a clock? And in which room did you put it?
-man, it's been a long time, probably a few years ago and put it in my bedroom

Another dollar....another day

At least I sparked it up a little yesterday by writing a little profile thing for Scott. He asked me to. I guess he's trying to get an outside look at himself. I have to admit that it was kinda hard in writing about him while trying to more think like him. It was easy to write all the nice things and I didn't even begin to start writing about the negative things (there aren't that many).
Last night, I had the joy of going through progress notes for work and more notes and more notes. They never seem to stop. It does help me as a supervisor get a clearer understanding of what ALL the participants are doing with the families.
Oh...and I actually finished a book too.

Yesterday

I was in a funky mood all day. Probably due to the lack of sleep that I've been experiencing and understanding that I'm getting really sick and tired of the selfish people in my life. Plus, it didn't help that I was stuck in a training all day. A training where I was with CEOs, COOs, CFOs who decide that it's more important to speak with others instead of actually being quiet and getting an understanding of what the presenters are trying to discuss. And then the stupid questions....
This morning I'm not really all that much better even though I did sleep but had strange dreams...mud wrestling anyone?

Weekend/Monday

So before I have to head out to a training/meeting.....
I watched a lot of movies this weekend. Jerome had sent me the rest of season of Dexter so I was able to catch up on that on Saturday. I was happy to see the little twists and turns. Sunday, Joey and I watched some movies and relaxed.
I started a new project-a needlepoint project for my aunt and uncle for their little camp in Upstate NY. I've almost finished it already so I'm happy.
Yesterday I started exercising again...slowly as I'm still trying to recover from my surgery. Man, I'm really out of shape and I need to get back to where I'm feeling comfortable within myself again. It's difficult because Joey feels that he needs to gain weight and I need to lose weight. Too bad we don't have a magic wand and do a little switch-a-roo.

In other news....

I actually made it a whole day yesterday at work. Painkillers and antibiotics can be a good thing and I'm not one to take medication.
Of course, when I got home, found out that my bank situation was never fixed (they were supposed to take off a pending transaction) and almost didn't want to give me back all of my fees...dem bastards. But I prevailed. And I was able to go out to dinner with Joey last night AND even manage to get groceries. Wow! I might even have more than enough to repay rent AND keep getting gas. Just simply amazing.

I'm an official "Redneck"

and I have the hole in my mouth to prove it.
A couple of years ago my last baby tooth came out-there was never any permenant tooth underneath it. So I had the pleasure of getting a crown and the whole nine yards. Well, last night, while chewing some gum, it came out. The best thing...I have NO health insurance. So now I have to debate on going to a dentist and paying more money that I don't have, attempt to find some cheap insurance, or do nothing and live up to my "redneck" life style.

Happiness is.....

a new live Tori Amos CD from 1992

Cutie Alert

Another day

I finally got some antibiotics yesterday. Can you imagine a doctor not prescribing antibiotics after surgery?
Last night I finally caught up on the blogs that I've been reading and even worked a little on the cross stitch for my mom. Hopefully tonight, with Joey's assistance, I'll have a picture from my camera to post on it.
Not much else going on in the exciting world of Jen.

Best news I've heard in a long time

My dad is cancer free.

Yesterday/Last night

Another crazy day yesterday at work as supervisor. Back to back meetings. Dealing with stupidity and not understanding why it has to be this way. All of this with a fever. Joy.
When I got home, Suzie would not leave me alone...not sure why. She's always bugging me for attention. Not that I really mind. Last night I was debating on working on the cross-stitch for my mom or finally catching up on the blogs that I used to read every day. Well, the blogs won out. After about an hour and fifteen minutes, I still wasn't completely caught up. It's nice to see what has been happening with my blog friends. Some have added new additions to their families, others have lost. Some are stitching away while others have been like me and life has taken over from their time.
I had a hard time sleeping last night. I probably slept all of 3-4 hours. Not a good thing.

Attempts

I'm going to attempt to get back to writing on here more often. I feel that with everything going on, I need an outlet. So with that being said....I had surgery Saturday. I'm trying to recover but yesterday I had severe pains and a fever. Thought that I was going to have to go to the ER. Unfortunately I don't know how high the fever was. Not surprising, I feel fine this morning. The fever broke while I was trying to sleep.
Joey has started school and is enjoying it which I'm thrilled for him. Unfortunately, times like last night, I could have used his comfort. But Scott and Denise were there and I thank both of them. Yes, you read it correctly, Scott. Like most people, he's going through his own stress and I hope that I was a little bit helpful last night. He was able to get my mind off my body and made me miss Zeit even more.
I've been watching a lot of DVDs from Netflix. It seems like that is all I can afford to do. That and all the books and crafts I've obtained over the years. Speaking of crafts, I'm still working on the Linus and Lucy latch hook and the cross-stitch for my mom. I should probably charge up my digital camera so I can start taking pictures of at least the cross-stitch.
Hope that everyone out there is doing well.

Friday's Feast

This week's Friday's Feast:

Appetizer

Name a color you find soothing.
-blues and grays

Soup

Using 20 or less words, describe your first driving experience.
-in a big Xerox parking lot with my dad

Salad

What material is your favorite item of clothing made out of?
-cotton

Main Course

Who is a great singer or musician who, if they were to come to your town for a concert, you would spend the night outside waiting for tickets to see?
-Tori Amos or Live

Dessert

What is the most frequent letter of the alphabet in your whole name (first, middle, maiden, last, etc.)?
-E

Long time

I haven't been keeping up with this except for the cute pictures of dogs or other random things. There has been some things going on in my life that I'm chosing not to make public-God forbid I start an uproar with decisions that I make. With the most recent decision, I'm actually doing a much better job in handling it then I thought I would.
I've been working on some crafting projects-a Linus and Lucy Holiday Latch hook-not sure what I'm going to do with it once I'm done-might try to sell it. And a cross-stitch project for my mom. It's of a teacup-since she's been collecting tea pots, I've been trying to find things that are around that theme.
I've finally finished the Harry Potter series. Wasn't too bad. It's a shame that people have seemed to go back to not reading. Thank you land of TV and video games.

Cutie Alert

Cutie Alert

Strange

It's kinda strange how life changes on you so quickly. Packing up my life and getting the hell out of dodge aka NYC, then moving out of Tracy's, then being here with Joey all within a very short period of time. Tomorrow, Joey starts school. We're both broke thanks to this move and recession. I'm still trying to establish a crafting schedule for myself-doesn't help that we don't have any furniture in our living room and the lighting in the whole apartment stinks. I did manage to finish something for an exchange project which will be heading overseas today...finally. My reading time is picking up. I actually finished 3 books in March...wow!

Stressful

That's the way my life has been lately. Stress at work due to people not always wanting to do their work and me having to be the one to give the consequences.
Homelife...would be nice if we had furniture and money but that will come. The most important thing is that the cats are happy.

SBQ

This week's SBQ was suggested by Terri
(http://stitchwraith.blogspot.com/) and is:

What items do you consider essential to your needlework that you keep
in your stitching bag?

-What's a stitching bag? Obviously I don't consider things essential. The way that I do my projects is that I have the kit or guide along with the fabric and threads necessary. Plus a needle, can't forget the needle!